Friday, May 13, 2011


My thoughts have been consumed with a high level of uncertainty this last week.  It's times like these when I realize I tend to want to control all of the variables of a situation to feel comfortable.  I want to be able to see the future and because I can't, I fill my mind with all of the possible scenarios I imagine could happen.  This is a huge waste of energy; nevertheless, I'm unable to keep my mind calm and to accept that what happens happens.  I guess I hope that I can lessen the blow by preparing myself with incessant thoughts?  The funny thing is, uncertainty usually means change is in the air.  I want to resist the change, but know in my heart that it is change which helps me learn.  And, I love learning!  I love the excitement I feel when I'm trying to grasp a new concept or gain a new skill!  It's frustrating, uncomfortable, and pushes me outside of my comfort zone, but it's what keeps me passionate about life.  So with that knowledge, I will be working really hard to embrace uncertainty.  Well, ok, maybe not embrace it, but at least accept it.  What do you do when change is on the horizon?


  1. I couldn't have said it better myself! I am exactly the same way, I get an urgent need to find a way to control whatever the situation. Sometimes I just have to leave to chance! *Sigh*

  2. Forgot that you mentioned a new entry until I saw it in my Reader. You know that I can relate! I must say that I enjoy knowing when uncertainty is certainly in the future as opposed to feeling uncertain about potential uncertainty. Say that ten times fast. :P